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So basically ever since I got this blog over a year ago, I’ve been anguished over the very limited amount of updates I write for it. Perhaps it’s because I’m a hopeless perfectionist when it comes to writing coming from my hands. Not that my work is very perfect when it does get published, but I guess I need to feel inspired in order to start typing, and I mostly get inspired when I’m not at home, or not relaxed. I get philosophical on bus rides, walks, while falling asleep, while disconnected, and all kinds of things like that. I just came back from my first school day of this year, and Tuesdays are awesome, it would seems. Hopefully we’ll… Well, mostly me, because blogs are basically ego trips anyways, and not that many people read this blog since the ones I’ve linked to it barely ever get anything new to read, and when I do post, it’s probably either something emo or some song lyrics with music they don’t want to listen to… Anyways, I and maybe you too will get to see more updates on Tuesdays, because I have Religion B and then Philosophy A right after each other, which is bound to produce some philosophical questions in me.

Anyways, as I said, school’s started again. It’s soon one year since I fell in love, and as I’m a hopeless symbolist and part supernaturalist, part huge sceptic/rationalist, I keep thinking about that as if it had some significance. I still feel guilty even looking at other women and concluding that they look good or that I like something about them. Either way, I’m starting to at least harvest some of the good parts of being alone, which is that I can focus on myself. I really need to focus on studies this year, which means that… yes, I’m going to promise to myself that I will not start playing any MMO until I have graduated. MMOs and girls are the biggest time thieves on this green(?) Earth.

I’ve also started thinking about what to do after school. I mean, I still do not at all get how I’d ever translate my interests into any profitable career other than becoming an author or possibly teacher, but I sometimes worry about having enough motivation to do that too. But at Livskraft (EFS’s New Year’s camp), I had a seminar with Loe (Lars-Olov Eriksson, specialist in the Old Testament), I got the idea to go to Johannelund Theological College’s Bible school in Uppsala. It’s like six months, allows me to get away from Halmstad for a bit, let me get to know new people, specializes in what I’m interested, which is the more theoretical theological parts of faith.

Hmm… So now that I’m not allowing myself to play any MMOs (The fact that Pirates of the Burning Sea kind of disappointed me helped me in that decision), I’ve taken up a Civilization IV addiction with lebo47 instead. It’s 5x as addicting as any MMO I’ve ever played is, but at least it ends. As far as gaming goes, I’m also undecided as to what to do with some of my remaining money. I could of course *save* it, but I’m not too sure… 😛 After Grottcon IX, I’m really craving some more Guitar Hero, which for the record beats Frets on Fire’s ass so much. Co-op Career mode is awesome, and I’m loving the whammy bar. However, if I’d get it for the Wii, it’d cost me like 500 SEK (with some help from Ntorrents), for single player only. Also, that’d only allow me to play GH3 and any upcoming games in the series. However, if I get a PS2 controller, I could play it at Michael’s house, since he bought the game yesterday. The PS2 controller is cheaper, and it can play Guitar Hero 1,2,3 and Rock the 80’s. The obvious problem is of course that I don’t have a PS2, so I’d have to either just play at my friend’s house, or that I buy a PS2, which both hurts economically and my anti-Sony fanboyism. I’m not so much a Nintendo or PC fanboy really as I am an anti-Sony-and-everything-they-stand-for fanboy.

Anyways, decisions, decisions. If you’re curious about the title of this blog entry, it was a subject of discussion today in Philosophy class, it means “beyond”. It was also the category to the right of this page in which I pressed login to write this entry. I found it fitting.

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