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The next few days

April 30, 2008 Leave a comment

I won’t really be around much the next few days, as I’ll be in charge of projection at the EFS year conference here in Halmstad. I will sleep at home though, so I’ll probably be online for an hour or two in the evening, but that’s it. Starting tonight, until sometime during Sunday. I’ll see if I can find wireless internet somewhere, though ;P

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April 25, 2008 Leave a comment



…The Ardent Awaited Land

Yeah, these are a couple of awesome songs I uploaded to show some people, but I thought I could advertise the awesome site whilst doing so. Basically just upload a song (at top speed, for me!), then put an email and a title and optional description, and you can send the link and others can stream it. Amazing!

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Extol – Paradigms

April 23, 2008 Leave a comment

Link to stream of the song

The worship of creation
Seeming endless
But it will end
And every knee shall bow

Thoughts of a coincidental existence
And a futureless world corrodes into the
Spinal chord of the narcissistic man
A paradigm shift for worse
My ego is my god
Given authority by the enlightenment
Of science,
The enlightenment of the age of freedom
Freedom – the name in which we legalize all
The name in which we tolerate all

Credibility for truth, image for substance
Weakness and failure
– unbearable elements in life
Subtly opposed through an endless flow of
Constantly replaced trends, neither allowed
To mature nor to fade
The surroundings,
A mirror reflecting the signals
Of admiration that makes my identity
A constant egocentricity providing a
Purging of anything threatening popularity

The peak of this shallowness
Displayed by the so-called stars
In their quest for self-actualisation
This beautiful people experiencing
The illusion of narcissistic prosperity,
Uncritically and boundlessly admired,
Simply for their own sake

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How to deal with time

April 16, 2008 1 comment

This next (first) paragraph, you can skim, it’s my starting line that I mainly wrote to start my mind on the philosophical track:

It’s interesting really. This is another one of those bus rides things, but really it’s the night that makes it for me. Yeah, I’m definitly a night person, simply because I get the most awake and aware when there is no natural light, or very little of it. Other people were complaining about the weather today because there was no sun out, but 9 times out of ten. I’m happy is there is no sun. My main problem with weather isn’t if it’s warm or cold, but if it’s BLOWING. The only time it’s cool if it’s blowing is if it’s a fucking STORM we’re talking about. Apart from that, fuck winds. Probably has to do with how skinny I am, the winds just pierce through my skin and makes my bones cold 😛

Anyhow, where was I going with this? Well, I dunno. With all the stuff I should be doing right now and with all the stuff I should do that could determine my future, I realize (as many times before) that I am a man of the now. Or no, I’m not, but I constantly wish or pretend that I am. In reality, I plan all the time. I think through in my head what I should be doing, plan exactly in what order I should do things and how I should go about them. Later. Because I never start the course of actions in my plans with the NOW, the now is always more important, and I also don’t plan what comes immediatly after the now, only what comes after that, probably. And by the time I’ve gotten to the thing after the now (if there ever is one that isn’t going to bed, I’ve entirely forgotten the plan I had in mind.

So yeah, it’s basically a different kind of living in the now and in the future. Some people plan out their day and carry it out, and never really think of the now. Some people just live in the now and plan their next action immediatly after they are done, and as such they live in the now and the near future, while they despise planning for the far future. Personally? I live in ALL of the past, especially the immediate past. I also live in the now, but I do *not* live in the near future, except when I really have to focus on something. But I almost always live in the distant future, meaning “tomorrow”, “next month” or even “in a few hours”. Just not “I’ll better start doing this now so I can actually do that thing”.

So why did I type this? For my own good, I need to think about it. But it might be interesting for other people to consider as well. I think all people need a balance of all these things. To appreciating the now and acting out in it. To understand and learn from the past, without dwelling in past mistakes or dreaming back to “the good old days”. And finally, to have plans in your life without constantly living in what you’re either about to do, or to procrastrinate everything into that pile of “far future” things that I tend to do. It’s a combination of my philosophical nature, my scatter-brained nature and forgetfulness and general feeling of escapism being a good strategy that are my main factors in causing my problems with how I dwell in this world. I’m sure most other people have their own share of problems in the balance between these things.

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April 14, 2008 1 comment

Have you ever stopped yourself and thought of how many of the things we do are because of behaviour we force ourselves to have? The past 30 minutes or so I’ve been aimlessly walking around in school an attempt to “have something to do”. Then as I looked at the clock to see when my bus leaves, I just stopped and thought “What if I just stop trying desperately to find a way to spend my time, and just let myself be for the few remaining minutes? This is something I find myself have trouble with constantly… I mean, I do enjoy thinking, reflecting etc, but I think I let myself do it in a way that isn’t relaxed at all.

Basically, I think a lot of western human minds are conditioned to constantly look to the future, to constantly be in control of what we should be doing next. I think this is the whole point of religions like Buddhism, that we’ve just recently started to work with. I’ve always been incredibly sceptical with the religion Buddhism, but I do get the primary concern they have with our world, which is that us humans are waaay too concerned with what we want, a constant need to feel happy, a constant chase after what we already have, the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side.

I’m starting to realize, and all the while I still hate most of the organized religion Buddhism, that they do have a point. We need to enjoy the now, instead of *constantly* longing for the tomorrow. Stop in your mind to contantly find things about your current situation that is making you enjoy it less. If you start thinking about your situation in terms of what you like about it instead of what you dislike about it, it’ll make your a happier and healthier person.

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Cool article – just don’t hate me

April 5, 2008 1 comment

The Problem With Women Today

Very cool and most of all, hilarious, article. A lot of truths, if you *generalize*! To paraphrase the article’s author: There’s differences between people and between the sexes. So what this article describes is a mentality that has been brainwashed to women, to encourage a certain lifestyle. Note that this doesn’t mean I think all women are fit for being housewives just because they are reactive in their nature. That seems to be what people assume you think if you aren’t super pro-feminist.

I’d post a longer post, but I’ve philosophized so much today already with Fryslagg, Zooloo, Pawnator and Tombag that my mind is incredibly tired. I should go to sleep now.

And seriously, if you still think I’m a bad person for linking this on my blog – please just talk to me in person/IM, rather than thinking I’m an asshole and not saying anything.

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Philosophy Paper on “Subjective Materialism”

April 2, 2008 Leave a comment

I was talking to Amethyst from IRC the other day, and after having spoken to a few others mentioning it, I thought it would be interesting to post the Philosophy paper I wrote in a hurry before a lesson a few days ago. It’s interesting to see how your thoughts on a concept develop over only a few weeks though, because reading it now, as I translated it, I noticed several things I wanted changed, or phrased differently. But here it is. Remember that it’s addressing my Philosophy teacher, I just translated the entire thing.

How do you start a paper where we don’t have a question to ask ourselves, excepting what we consider having been worth memorizing from the Philosophy course since we started it? Well, I suppose I should start by saying that it’s been mixed feelings. Personally, I think that it’s more important to teach how to think philosophically, rather than reading up on what Greek people 2500 years ago thought, which I understand is partly your opinion as well. So far we have after all had quite a few interesting discussions, to the extent you can have them in a group as big as ours. 

The way I am, however makes me spend more time studying how and what the other people in the class think about the philosophies we discuss, and the various questions we’ve asked ourselves. Many of the questions man has asked himself through all ages don’t seem that popular any more. And here we actually get into what we’ve discussed. Plato’s Objective Idealism is definitely not a popular thought these days, even though I am personally quite interested in the thought. I am definitely an Idealist, but at the same time a huge sceptic to most things that come from my own brain. In my opinion, subjective idealism, among other things, is more common than what people in our class expressed. In the spirit of Berkeley, or at least based on his thoughts, people today don’t think of a common world that we can all experience, but instead truth is up to everyone to judge for themselves. Just this question has been recurring during our lessons: What do we actually know? 

But to return to Berkeley, I’d like to say that like Social Darwinism was a perversion of Darwin’s own thoughts, the Subjective Idealism that exists today in the Postmodern society (if I get to generalize a bit) is quite different from the idea Berkeley once proposed. Because while Berkeley claimed that us humans can’t perceive the objective reality, the thing itself (to use Kantian terminology), he still maintained that God was there as the single person who could perceive the objective reality as it was. Even though we haven’t discussed his faith much, it at least seemed like it was through God we could get true objective knowledge. This is the point where modern Subjective Idealism differs. Today, there’s no other God than the one that exists in each person’s own private reality, as a cosmic teddy bear, to quote Freud. As such, it’s not possible for us to live in any kind of universal or common reality. Instead, we’re our own Gods, and everything we perceive is always the best truth there is to get. Because if there is no other God than either ourselves or the one we make up, there couldn’t possibly be anyone else than myself who could decide what’s true or false, right? 

But even though Idealism is common these days there is still a lot of the old Modernist faith in science and Humanism. Because those that haven’t embraced New Age or other private religious movements the last few decades, there must be a more scientific alternative to faith, right? Perhaps most prominently in Sweden, there are many who, while they maintain that every person decides their own truth, refuse to accept concepts like a soul or a higher truth than the meaning I can give the things I perceive. Now we get to the concept I asked about one of the last lessons we had. Is there such a concept as “Subjective Materialism”? I think that despite it not being a generally accepted term within philosophy, it’s a pretty good was of describing the quite confused relationship many people have today with faith and science. Man today wants to be his own God, and thus decide his own reality. At the same time, we don’t want to believe in such concepts as a soul or anything other than what science can prove, and thus the world that we perceive or choose to perceive is without exceptions material. Then a conflict happens between the material, precise and logical world science wants to paint and the mindset where each person is their own God in their own little world. And though we say that we believe that Man himself can understand the reality we live in, many choose not to think much at all, as there obviously isn’t much more to discover other than what “the scientists” can prove for us. 

To summarise, it is this view on the truth that many have today that has been the thing on my mind during and after our lessons in Philosophy. I hope that in the future, we’ll get more philosophical questions to work with, and I’m looking forward to write more papers like this one! 

Peter Berntsson, SPSK05

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