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School’s Out

May 31, 2008 Leave a comment

No more pencils
No more books
No more teacher’s dirty looks

Finally finished my last geography assignment like a few hours before deadline, and then… sent the wrong version to my teacher. I hope he can just put a grade anyhow, considering I don’t get my final grade paper until in a few months anyhow. Meh.

I could be more excited today, to be honest. I sort of miss school, both the lessons, but I’m sort of attached to parts of my class, in fact more than just one person. Oh well. Life goes on.

Going to my childhood friend/neighbour’s wedding tomorrow, and I’m sure I’ll be more cheery after that. I watched the Hipp-Hipp Christmas Special because I found the CD randomly, and it ended so happily, but then Itzak himself had to end the entire thing by jokingly mentioning someone who happened to have that certain name…

Doesn’t matter. So I counted yesterday. 11 MVGs, 10 VGs, 6 Gs, 4 IGs. +/-1 or so. But all of the IGs will be corrected over summer, transferring into more MVGs and VGs, most probably, as is the case with one of the Gs (Culture history). The end grade paper won’t look too shabby at all, considering how much time I spent in school in 2007 (basically none at all, that is).

South Park, House and Supernatural are all on hold until autumn, I finished watching the only existing 9 episodes of Pushing Daisies (great show), and that continues in autumn as well. Doctor Who is really the only show on at the moment. What the hell I will do all day during summer, I don’t know. I’ll have to try desperately to be social, but I’ll be home when everyone else is at work. Hmm.

I finally discovered Finntroll, beyond Trollhammaren so to say. Quite an amazing band tbh. And the demo version of Eternal Wait is almost better than the original 🙂

This must be such a shitty blog entry to read, I’m just crapping out of my fingers, which I suppose is what a lot of bloggers do, except they do it daily. I rarely get into this mood where I just need to ventilate… Or actually, scratch that, but recently I’ve been playing Guitar Hero or something else useless like that to dispose of that. Yay for constantly knowing one’s own psychological defense mechanisms and yet doing nothing to stop them.

I’m moving out from here on Friday, but I’ll be packing down things and moving things to Kornhill even before that. I’ve been feeling like I need to say farewell to random trees, my house, and everything like that. As for the people, I’ll see Svenssons and Michael and his family occasionally. Beyond that? I don’t know anyone in this village. Or well, I do, but they might appear at my graduation/good bye party on Thursday. How that will turn out, I don’t know. I’m happy my mom takes care of that.

I got into Johannelund’s Bible School. What this means is that I’ll most probablylive in Uppsala starting September 1st or something like that. It starts the day after, so somewhere around there at least ;P I haven’t confirmed yet though, and I’ve yet to find out if I have a room guaranteed there, which is a key thing I’ll need to know before accepting. I also have until December 15th to decide if I want to do the second semester. I will never get over that word, by the way. Semester means vacation in Swedish, so that’s not really the same meaning at all ;P

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Peace of mind and bomb threats

May 8, 2008 1 comment

And so I return from another journey home from school whereby my means of transportation was a bus. Watched a film about Zen Buddhism in religion, next lesson we’re watching The Matrix from a Buddhist point of view. As critical as I am of Buddhism, I take the parts I like and enjoy them – namely having calm in my mind if but for a while. For the past 6-8 months, I’ve been worried and stressed almost constantly, but as spring arrives and I know that at least the next few days there’s one less thing of my mind of things I should do *right now*.

Also, I’m a huge fan of Muse the past week, got into Origin of Symmetry. Originally (hehe) I only listened to it for Plug-in Baby, as that was in a custom Guitar Hero, plus Raif sent me a live version of it. Then I’ve had that song on my mind for the past two days, partly because I listened to it this Tuesday, which was a quite eventful day, I’ll tell the story after I’m done with this first part, because that’ll take me out of this mood, which I quite enjoy. In fact, I will just copy paste it from elsewhere, as I’m tired of telling the damned story now.

Graduation is getting close. It feels like I will soon really be free, and I hope I will do something good with that freedom. I’m going for a meeting about the newspaper distribution job next tuesday (the 20th), so that’ll be cool. I think I will send my application to Johannelund as soon as possible as well, and I’ll see if they accept me, and if they accept me, I’ll see if I’ll actually go.

And that’s all I have to say about that. This is a very relaxing blog post to write, I have no idea if it’s relaxing at all to read, though 😛

Okay, story:

Today I went on a field trip with my religion class to Malmö to visit the Mosque and the Synagogue. When we got to the Mosque, there was a suspicious person with a briefcase standing a bit away, looking at us, SMSing, back and forth. We got in, talked for like an hour with the woman who was our guide, when the bell rings. Some asian woman had seen the man I mentioned put the briefcase in the “garden” of the synagogue and then left. So the woman called their security just in case, security calls police, police gets bomb defusal experts, defusal experts lock down the area and evacuate everyone except us from there, and this happened:

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Links in Swedish, but they have a few images at least. Basically, there was a bank job that happened 10 minutes after the police had been notified of the briefcase. The bank heist was successful, although they only got away with a minor amount of money. As for our bomb, after about 1 hours 40 minutes, they told us they were going to blow up the briefcase. So after 5 minutes we heard a bang, but it was as if someone had popped a balloon in the room, wasn’t too spectacular. They then told us it had contained no bomb, and we could leave after 15 minutes or so. Slept on the bus back home.

Fun day. I like field trips.

From a thread on the PP forums. And today, my hair made the newspaper. The dude to the left is not in my class, but the girls are. That didn’t stop him from acting like a total media whore, though 😛 Nah, a bit harsh, I don’t know if he truly was that upset, but it certainly seemed like he was overacting and trying to outshine the others somehow.

Annnyways, no school tomorrow, as both lessons are “free work time” or whatever you’d call it. I like these long weekends, especially when it’s beautiful outside 😀

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Social awkwardness

May 5, 2008 1 comment

Hmm… Right. Back from 4 days of EFS Year Conference. I’d link you to EFS’s page here, but… And yes, I am aware that was the least exciting link you’re clicked all day 🙂

Anyhow, the conference was good, and for some reason I really enjoy working and being responsible of things even if it means I’ll barely have any free time for 4 days. It probably has something to do with being constantly stressed out, so if I have a proper excuse to be stressed on short time, I can justify not feeling crap about not doing anything related to my somewhat permanent long-term stress, which is mostly related to school.

Met a few people, but in general I just feel socially awkward in church surroundings where EVERYONE already knows each other, and if you haven’t developed some kind of deep friendship with the people who all know each other, I feel like I’m forever outside. And yes, I’m aware this is a ridiculous way of thinking about it, but hey, can’t say it’s a voluntary feeling. I mean, on some logical level I can usually tell when people like me, but there’s something about the fear of rejection that goes way beyond just girls, I think in general I am just so afraid of being that guy who is way friendlier than the other person wants/tries to be to you. Of course that too isn’t technically a bad thing to be, if no one ever takes one step further in a friendship, obviously it’s never going to go much further than good aquiantances.

In a nutshell, I love talking and being around people, and I’m not socially awkward if I’m given the confidence I need to actually feel like I’m being appreciated or taken seriously, etc. I also can’t really say I’m shy, it’s more… paranoia. There’s always a *reason* to why I won’t speak to someone, and I think I’m quicker than many less socially shy people to voice my opinion and to argue about something. But of course first I need a good reason to argue, but that’s never been the problem for me. Debating/Arguing (in a friendly manner) is my idea of a great time. Too bad not everyone feels that way.

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